I had so many ideas about this site/blog but I am stuck not getting further then my Instagram account. I guess the problem is that I aim way to high..... Perfection..... I have no right o bother you unless I really have something to say, some "perfect" article that "explains it all", well at least … Continue reading I am stuck with my writing (and my life)
The official name is actually Adult Children of Alcoholics / Dysfunctional Families though at least here in Stockholm it's mostly about understanding and healing from narcissistic abuse. I found out about these guys perhaps some six weeks ago, in fact through a person in this online support group Complex PTSD Recovery who turned out to … Continue reading Adult Children of Narcissists
Step one in the process of breaking free from narcissism, identify the Enemy.... https://youtu.be/J4-2LFCS6iM If you don't take the shortcut and put all the blame outside of you, you will will find that it lives inside your head. This is not you are though, this is who "They" expected you to be.... who you … Continue reading Know your Enemy……
Writing about my ex I used the words Evil Ways and of course my brain made yet another musical association. Evil Ways...... Santana....? Yes its Santana and he has described Narcissistic partners even better or what do you think? https://youtu.be/EVeHHmGcoNk And i kept searching...... Anyone who can relate? https://youtu.be/FYcyf2Mu0-c Ok, Evil Ways..... with a very … Continue reading She is not there…….
There is A LOT about narcissism on the internet though very much of it is from a Victim perspective, including stuff from well known coaches and therapists..... It's all about Them.... They are Evil and You/We are targeted simply because that we are so Good. The cruel truth about narcissistic relationships is that you are … Continue reading It takes two to Tango
I have met my ghosts I have been able to get rid of my own false (narcissistic) self though I am still fighting my fears of being unseen/rejected. Every step I take to make real connection, to tell some more of my history is a step that puts me at high risk of being triggered … Continue reading Immobilize without Fear……
Yes, so far you are. I still love the woman I saw behind your walls though I realize that those walls are too strong for me to brake through. You opened my eyes , you made me feel more loved than I had ever felt. I almost began to believe you when you said it … Continue reading Songs to the love of my life! so far….
As you ought to know by now Music has been, and still is important in my process of healing and understanding. Some songs helps me to see myself and give me strength but many songs helps me to see and understand other people. Not the person they show to the world but the true person … Continue reading Song to my oldest son
For me this song and video is about the feeling of being threatened and attacked when you begin to understand that you have been held down, isolated and controlled by fears from you past that is no longer real. When you begin to trust in yourself and your own feelings, refuse to give in in … Continue reading Foo Fighters My Heroes!
The toxic family is a regime built on fear of abandonment. A sect where "love" is never unconditional and everyone, at least subconsciously, knows they will be excluded if they reveal the truth, even to themselves...... Narcissus did not fall in love with himself, he fell in love with his own reflection..... The narcissist long … Continue reading The Narcissists Family