She came up those stairs

The first of March 2014.... We had talked online and on the phone for a week. I had taken a train 400 miles but had to wait almost three hours before she turned up and two before she even answered my calls. She had forgotten to turn it on.... In control of things even before … Continue reading She came up those stairs

Nya tag….. på Svenska

Jag prövar att börja skriva även på Svenska. När jag skall berätta min egen historia så blir det så mycket enklare att skriva på modersmålet till människor som lever i mitt eget land och egen kultur. Skälet att jag började på Engelska vara mycket att jag var rädd för att bli alltför ensam här om … Continue reading Nya tag….. på Svenska

Adult Children of Narcissists

The official name is actually Adult Children of Alcoholics / Dysfunctional Families though at least here in Stockholm it's mostly about understanding and healing from narcissistic abuse. I found out about these guys perhaps some six weeks ago, in fact through a person in this online support group Complex PTSD Recovery who turned out to … Continue reading Adult Children of Narcissists

She is not there…….

Writing about my ex I used the words Evil Ways and of course my brain made yet another musical association. Evil Ways...... Santana....? Yes its Santana and he has described Narcissistic partners even better or what do you think? And i kept searching...... Anyone who can relate? Ok, Evil Ways..... with a very … Continue reading She is not there…….

It takes two to Tango

There is A LOT about narcissism on the internet though very much of it is from a Victim perspective, including stuff from well known coaches and therapists..... It's all about Them.... They are Evil and You/We are targeted simply because that we are so Good. The cruel truth about narcissistic relationships is that you are … Continue reading It takes two to Tango

Immobilize without Fear

I have met my ghosts I have been able to get rid of my own false (narcissistic) self though I am still fighting my fears of being unseen/rejected. Every step I take to make real connection, to tell some more of my history is a step that puts me at high risk of being triggered … Continue reading Immobilize without Fear

To My Children and Family

This post is exclusively for you so I shift to our mother language 🙂 Denna sida handlar inte om att svärta ned någon eller frita mig själv från skuld. Jag gör den för att jag är övertygad om att min historia, min förståelse,  kunskaper, litteratur, musik mm som betytt mycket för mig kan hjälpa andra … Continue reading To My Children and Family