I have met my ghosts I have been able to get rid of my own false (narcissistic) self though I am still fighting my fears of being unseen/rejected. Every step I take to make real connection, to tell some more of my history is a step that puts me at high risk of being triggered … Continue reading Immobilize without Fear
Yes, so far you are. I still love the woman I saw behind your walls though I realize that those walls are too strong for me to brake through. You opened my eyes , you made me feel more loved than I had ever felt. I almost began to believe you when you said it … Continue reading Songs to the love of my life! so far….
As you ought to know by now Music has been, and still is important in my process of healing and understanding. Some songs helps me to see myself and give me strength but many songs helps me to see and understand other people. Not the person they show to the world but the true person … Continue reading Song to my oldest son
For me this song and video is about the feeling of being threatened and attacked when you begin to understand that you have been held down, isolated and controlled by fears from you past that is no longer real. When you begin to trust in yourself and your own feelings, refuse to give in in … Continue reading Foo Fighters My Heroes!
The toxic family is a regime built on fear of abandonment. A sect where "love" is never unconditional and everyone, at least subconsciously, knows they will be excluded if they reveal the truth, even to themselves...... Narcissus did not fall in love with himself, he fell in love with his own reflection..... The narcissist long … Continue reading The Narcissists Family
This post is exclusively for you so I shift to our mother language 🙂 Denna sida handlar inte om att svärta ned någon eller frita mig själv från skuld. Jag gör den för att jag är övertygad om att min historia, min förståelse, kunskaper, litteratur, musik mm som betytt mycket för mig kan hjälpa andra … Continue reading To My Children and Family
Well I knew it and liked it before, of course 🙂 though, an online CPTSD friend I made today 🙂 in Chicago, Dr April Jones made me go check out the lyrics..... "Dazed And Confused" Led Zeppelin 1969 Been dazed and confused for so long it's not true. Wanted a woman, never bargained for you. … Continue reading Dazed and Confused……..
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